Sunday, September 13, 2009
Promise for life time...
and let me tell u one thing... if someone told u are the other woman in my life.. my reply is staright u are an equal woman in my life and would remain equally important in my life.
i consider myself a very lucky person to have u in my life and i am sure i would have done something good so i have recieved such a beautiful gift in my life.
Most Precious Moments of Life....
I wish the clock could be reversed and can be taken back to say for 15 years back and i could have started my relationship w.e.f from the reversed day only , i would have chosen her as my life partner from that day itself and we would have able to store more in the pandora box.
i had never thought in my life that the relationship can be so open , transperent still so much loving ... when i started to get into this relationship i thought it to be a separate relationship and thought i would tackle it this way .. but in between once i thought shall i be able to tackle it this way or not... and trust me i thought i would not , but trust me with mutual support we have been able to keep the relationship so beautiful that if i see our relationship as a third person i would envy it.
the kind of love and care we share for each other inspite of such trasperency ( presence as well as future ) .. is really amazing and loving. we have also come far long way and have had hindrances and fights in between .. but what i have observed is that these days we hve been able to understand better and the differences have reduced.
Sometimes our relationship looks like a fairy tale story but i now feel that its gift of God to both of us and God wants us to nurture it this way only and treasure it for life time thats why God couldnt see us away from each other for more then a day since we have met.
Trust me.... you are a very special person for me and will remain the same special person for me rest of life..... come what may.... i always dreamt to handle the relationship in the best of its way and i think we are doing it.. and we will keep on doing it.
i have promised myself that i shall never let this relationship go thru tough times for more then a day or two in future also ( differences are bound to come but its how we resolve and reunite)
I feel very special with you and love to come back ASAP and talk with you ... u make me very specail although i fail to make u realise so , but trust me i am improving.
love u immensly....
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Everything exclusively and entirely for you
My dear betu,
I want to let you know that anything that makes you happy makes me happier.
Never for a fraction of a second I ever wanted you to remove pics .....I truly want you to get the love of your life. I know how it feels to loose somebody who you love so dearly and dreamt of being together all your life.I wish you get everything you ever wanted.
My love for my best buddy would always remain as it is now, lil jealousy that I have in me I should be able to overcome in the coming days....read somewhere...if love is true...we may not be together sharing the same roof but we share a common feeling of wishing the very best for each other.
I wish the stars, the moons and most importantly a bright sunshine making you smile all your life. .....you are allowed to miss me at times :):):) since you will be missed for the rest of my life.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Best letter of my life
Dear MS...
I am not a writer neither have i written anything till now in my life..
I dont know what it is all abt and how it started ... may be we never thought it would be so beautiful..
The first day at India Gate -- Three Tea... one mobile lost ( special expressions post mobile lost and i lied to make u cheer again that company will pay )..... then movie was really great.... the start was so good.. but we never thought that the upcoming journey would be better then this....
God also favoured us when we didnt get tickets anywhere , god managed us to get two last tickets cancelled by someone ( if u recollect )
subsequently come the late night coffee at coffee shop .. an amazing idea ... when thought i never thought it would be so good... but was awesome except the tought green mirch which was difficult for me to handle and very easy for you ... lol.....then comes the day at Marine Drive... something i will never forget in my life.... u were on air.. u know u were behaving like a free bird... who wanted to fly who wanted to run and who wanted to enjoy every moment of her life... and i learnt and realised this from you...
then comes the tour to chowpaty... again the feeling of hovering around it was really something i will always cherish..... yr fight with menhndi wali girl... our collective ragda petish.. then chana.. then that kacha aam.. or whatever u call it...
The best one was our journey to Shirdi..... - i can still recollect how happy u were when i said lets go and when we went together to that place... i think all these things are destined... may be god wanted me to come there and thank him for you. the journey itself was so good.
i think the list is endless.... but you know somethng the feelings, fun , emotions were same all the times......
I can never forget the return trip and my visit to you from delhi...... it was the best among all and will nver forget it..
our frequent visit to inorbit and hovering around there for fun....
the best part of entire journey was we never felt that we were not enjoying each others company... i have got a habit of now sleeping for not more then 5 hrs and driving atleast 50 kms. a day lol
someone had told me that all good females get married up before 25 .. lol .. but i would say the best one is yet to.. lol
I shall never forget the movies we have had together.. and the daily doze of ragda petish ( dont worry u havent gone fat ).
I will never forget you not eating all panipouri... leaving water bottle half... not eating entire lunch whold going to shirdi.. lol..... the account remains to be settled..
we have had a lot which cant probably be described in words..( e.g. me wathching or gazing at you ) etc....
cant forget two best dinner of my life .. .bhindi and alu ( especially the last one ).. the flowers bargained by you .. the choc ,.. the ice cream... lol
I would only say that we have many more desires and aspirations to complete.... i dont know how future would be once u are to Cal...... but am sure someday our agenda to complete the remaining ones will be thru.......
I DONT WANT TO FORGET THE MEMORIES WE HAVE HAD... I WANNA CARRY THEM ALONE WITH ME FOR REST OF LIFE.... AND I WISH TO CREATE MORE OF SUCH MEMORIES........... WE DONT KNOW WHETHER THESE DAYS WILL COME BACK AFTER 2-3 YEARS OR NOT.. SO BETTER ENCASH IT......
I dont know what do u think and what do u plan.... but the only thing i can say is i will be waiting for you all the times..... all the days...
You are Special to me and will always remain special for me... come what may..IN ANY OF YOUR DECISIONS OF YOUR LIFE..... YOU BE REST ASSURED I AM AND I WILL ALWAYS STAND BY YOU.... YOU HAVE SOMEONE WHOM YOU CAN RELY ON WHOM YOU CAN TRUST ON AND WHOM YOU CAN GIVE ALL YOUR WORRIES... ANYTIME ANYWHERE .
I AM AND WILL REMAIN JUST ONE CALL AWAY EVEN IF YOU CALL ME AFTER 10 YEARS FROM NOW....
PLS FIND REMARKS IN COLOUR AS WELL AGAINST YR LETTER IN TRAILING MAIL...
Love
HD
My dear Betu,
I can still remember yesterday and today...I am so in Love in a special way,And knowing that you love me made me feel so high...HD WANTS YOU TO FEEL AT THE TOP OF THE WORLD AND HE WOULD DO ANYTHING TO MAKE U FILLED WITH LOVE.... AND ASSURE THAT NO ONE CAN LOVE U AS MUCH AS HE DOES.Pls note the writer feels....there is something divine...:):):)
But now i feel lost CANT LET U FEEL LOST WILL ALWAYS STAND WITH YOU HAND IN HAND......Don't know what to do..... JUST BE WHAT U ARE AND NEVER CHANGE Each and everyday I think of you...DONT EVER STOP THINKING ABT SOMEONE U LIKEPls note: The writer is not obsessed or depressed:):):) --- I KNOW WRITER IS THE BEST AND CAN COPE UP WITH ANYTHINGI'm trying with all my might...AM ALWAYS WITH YOU IN ALL YR EFFORTS
Because you will be gone.. I WILL NEVER BE GONE....And leave me standing all alone.... I WILL NEVER LEAVE U STANDING ALONE U ARE AN INTEGRAL PART OF MY LIFE NOW....Pls note: The writer doesnt want the reader to feel guilty about it....its life ways of making the writer a better person:), how else wud she know that she was special to HD.......... WRITER IS VERY SPECIAL FOR HD AND HD WILL DO ALL HE CAN TO MAKE HER FEEL THAT SHE IS VEYR SPECIAL FOR HIMAnd i know i've got to face tomorrow on my own... NO HD WILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU DURING ALL YOUR TIMES.. IN BAD TIMES HD WILL BE FIRST TO JOIN YOULetting you go even in thoughts, is never easy for me...U DONT NEED TO. JUST TRUST ME AND I WILL TAKE CARE OF EVERYTHINPls note: The writer was and will always be in love with HD... SO DOES HD, NO ONE CAN SEPARATE HD WITH MS.
But i love you so And hence set you free not just in words but in thoughts too( Try to..),The writer wishes it was as easy as writting it, HD DOESNT FEEL SUFFOCATED IN THIS RELATIONSHIP SO THERE IS NO QUESTION OF SETTING FREE.
I know, somedaySomehow,i'll find a way
To leave it all behind me...... NEVER LEAVE GOOD THINGS BEHIND ALWAYS CARRY WITH YOU SINCE TIME WILL NEVER COME BACK ITS HARD TO FIND GOOD MEMORIES AND GOOD PEOPLE ATLEAST HD CANT LEAVE MS BEHIND.The writer knows its gonna be difficult but the writer also believes theres always a dawn after every night.... HD IS ALWAYS THERE WITH WRITE IN ALL HER QUEST FOR LIFE..All the best of you,
The writer does not believe in luck and hates destiny:):):) ... HD BELEIVES DESTINY HAS DONE SOMETHING SO WE SHOULD ACCEPT IT AND FIND OUT THE SOLUTION TO BE WITH EACH OTHER.
Love,
MS
P.S. - WE SHOULD NEVER FORGET MERU AND ITS SERVICES AND THANKS THEM FOR ENJOYING OURSELVES..LOL
My bestest buddy is my love
Do not know why but aaj kuch alag sa ho raha hai.....
Betu, You and I both share this beautiful relationship. I know what it means to both of us. One of my friend just called me the other woman in your life.He was talking about social acceptance and all worldly things which I do not understand and I do not want to understand if it means losing you. I care a damn about social acceptance. All I know is with you my perspective to life has changed.
You have been so patient with me, at times my behaviour is just too bad for anybody to handle yet I do not see you losing patience with me.except the day you got a lil angry when I threw the Tea you prepared for me with all your love.
Last night when you came and I looked into your eyes I knew how wrong I was, how mean I was. Inspite of it, you gave me a much needed hug.I know it must have been tiring for you to drive but for me it was like ...we reached so soon.With you time just flies, for me nothing has changed our first meeting which was good 7 hrs long . I love it all. Especially you holding my hand and asking me 'COMFORTABLE' and quietly saying don't worry about job into my ears.This journey has been great.I look upto you for expressing all my feelings. The comfort level is so high that I say whatever weird/weirdest comes to my mind. Sometimes I wonder if you would take me wrong or consider me too fast to talk all such things to you. But I know by now you know me as a person so no worries I can speak my mind out.
You saying things which I do not want to hear in broad day light, trying to pull my legs...I know I always say Faltu bakwas mat kijiye but honestly speaking aap bolte ho acha lagta hai.The best part is when I say you are incapable and stuff and you give me your best smile.
I love it the most.I like you being naughty.I like your sense of humour...when you said that you slept off last night, I truly believed you. I trust you a lot.You are worthy of my trust. No guy would treat any gal the way you treat me.That is the USP of our relationship. There is some unknown divinity.sometimes my wishful thinking says how it would be had we met earlier. No regrets or complaints whatsoever.
I am sure God has some good plans in it. In you I have found my best friend. A friend whose hand I can hold anytime, you remember our deal of meeting when we get old. Now....I want you to make a promise to me. And I am sure if you do make a promise you will keep it, come what may..... I want you to promise me you would meet me wherever you are after 25 yrs.Betu, When I write this I am already thinking how good it would feel to see you. How good it would be to wait.....for you....what will we talk when we meet. Will you hold my hand the same way you held the first time. Will you take me for a movie and manage to get a ticket at a place where all the tickets are already sold out. Will you still not bother about loosing your cellphone? Will you still.............and many more questions and I guess in the coming 25 yrs I would have many more questions to ask you. Will make you drink 10 cups of tea...Will you drink it ?.That is one sweet punishment I have thought of giving you when you meeet after so many years.Be raeady Ok?
Promise naa.....
I love you very much Betu,
My every waking moment in your arms or alone, you entice my thoughts with sweet words and deeds and the gentle kiss that you give me makes me feel like the luckiest woman ever....todays was by far the gentlest :):):).
Hearing your voice brings peaceful comfort and a smile to my face at the mere thought of you. My heart beats for you alone, my betu. If I am not talking to you I am talking about you. I acnt sleep without talking to you and let me tell you I cant do with just 2-3 liners. i need to hear a lot from you. I fought with you the other day because I wanted to talk to you.When our eyes locked for the very first time last night , you rendered me breathless. I experienced a total different me. you have a hypnotic affect on me.
As each moment passes us by, I feel myself drawn more closely to you. The memories we have shared thus far encompass only the beginning as many more will come. You promised me this, it just a repetition of what you say to me :):)My heart is beating fast when I write this and while I was writting our 25yrs wala plan tears were rolling my eyes, silly me but guess this is love. In your absence, I close my eyes and dream of your hug, your hand holding mine and your soft lips pressed against mine. I like your lips the best hence the zipper for my new purse :):):)
You make me feel.......pls find a word
With you I am truly whole, a better human being, learning to be patient, learning to look at the positive things of life. learning to live life....I want to live as much as possible in the earliest possible...I quite like the funda of 30 days of abhi starrer bluffmaster....going by that I have already lived a very good life with you and if i ask for anything more than this it would not be fair...
You are all I have......
Thanks for being in my life....thanks for making it more meaningful.
Always,
MD ( I thought I was in love with my surname untill I met you).